I call this post: Naiihi ako [BGmusic: A Minor Inc…

I call this post: Naiihi ako [BGmusic: A Minor Incident - Badly Drawn Boy]

Mondays are so painful. Wouldn’t it be nice if we had five days of rest and two days of work instead of the other way around?

Awhile ago I almost didn’t wake up. Either my alarm didn’t go off, or I must have turned it off when I was still in dreamland. Umuulan. I woke up when I heard someone say “walang pasok”, only to find out na may pasok pala. [Boohoo. Boohoo.]

I like this kind of weather, though. The heavy rains and the cold wind. It’s just like Baguio. The rain can be a pain in the backside, because somebody stole my umbrella and now I’m stuck with one of those giant family umbrellas. Wa-poise, but what can I do? [Kanina nga, di ko na ginamit yung umbrella. Bitbit ko lang. I just put on my hood and walked through the rain umbrella-less. Nakakahiya kasi. Sobrang laki.]

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Have any of you heard of Top of the Pops? I think they used to air it in ABC5 or Studio 23. I’m not sure. It was a chart show. They showed the top 20 UK singles. Anyway, I used to watch it when we still lived in England. Every single Friday. I was nine when I first watched the show. I even remember the first performer - I doubt that any of you have heard of her, but it was Louise. Her song was crap, but I loved the show. I think the Number One single at the time was It’s Like That by Run DMC [uber catchy, will download it later to reminisce].

Anyway, why am I sharing this with you?

I’m getting there.

This show made such a huge impact on my musical preferences. I didn’t care much about music before - I listened to whatever my sister listened to [Backstreet Boys, Backstreet Boys, and more Backstreet Boys]. Because of TOTP, I learned I learned that Britney can’t sing live, and that Robbie Williams was a badass performer. I learned the dance steps of Steps because of TOTP. With TOTP, I memorized the lyrics of my favorite 5ive songs. TOTP introduced me to bands like the Manic Street Preachers, Cornershop, Oasis, Blur, Bush, Catatonia, to pop groups like B*Witched [ack], 911 [eck], Westlife [ick], S Club 7 [ock], The Vengaboys [uck], and to legends like Cher, Tom Jones, and Prince.

Again, why am I sharing this with you?

I found out that the show has finally stopped airing. After forty-two years, the BBC decided that TOTP has reached its conclusion. The last episode was aired July 30.

I felt really bad when I first heard about it [last week - late talaga ako pagdating sa balita]. Although I don’t watch the show anymore, it was part of my life, you know? I thought it would be there forever [I mean, come on, it has been around for FORTY-TWO YEARS]. And now, it’s not. A part of my childhood is gone. [I know it sounds more than a little melodramatic, but it's true.]

Bummer.

Wala na akong masabi.

I call this post: Wasting Away [BGmusic: All You N…

I call this post: Wasting Away [BGmusic: All You Need Is Love - Lynden David Hall]

I haven’t had breakfast. My dorm doesn’t serve food on weekends. I’m wasting away… [Echo: away... away... away...] Ate cookies. Not full. I guess I’ll have something to eat right before I go to church.

Speaking of church, I made a vow to myself that I will be wearing skirts on Sundays. [And am regretting it very much.] I’m not a skirt person. My legs look like sticks. Ang panget tingnan. But whatever, I’ll try to keep my promise.

I am so in love with Rodic’s tapsilog. To those of you who aren’t familiar with the UP ecosystem, Rodic’s is a UP legend. It’s like, a bajillion years old [actually, it's been keeping UP students well fed since 1940-something]. It’s located at our wonderful Shopping Center [where you can also go on the internet, buy school supplies, get your hair cut, your nails done and MORE!]. Sarap talaga ng tapsilog nila. Heaven on a metal plate, that’s what it is. I had tapsilog for lunch and dinner yesterday, and I may have some later.

Man, I’m hungry.

I’m craving for chocolate. Jenny [from BA] bought a Butterfinger and a huge chunk of dark chocolate yesterday. I wonder if she still has any left. I wonder if she’ll let me have some. I wonder what her room number is. [My stomach: Grrrrruuuuuwrrrrraaaarrrrr...]

Anyway, can’t post on an empty stomach. Para matuwa naman kayo… I have peekchoors. Wihihihihi.

Ahihihihi…

Ahihihihi ulit.

Ahihihihi na naman.

I call this post: "Hmmm… Samthing… Different…..

I call this post: “Hmmm… Samthing… Different…”

Yes, dears. As you may have noticed, my blog looks just a teeny-weeny bit different.

[Bakit mo pinalitan?] Bakit hindi? I like change. I loved my old template, but I want to shake things up a little. [Oo-er...] So I tweaked some things here and there.

[Bakit walang kape?] Ehem ehem. Merong “coffee stains” sa upper right corner, next to my code name. Yun na yun.

[Bakit may kotse?] Kasi… Beetle siya. Pagong. My friends and I have these really inane games revolving around VW Beetles [the old kind]. I won’t go into details here, baka bababa pa yung tingin ninyo sa akin.

So yun. Voila. Bagong template. Wee.

[From now on, I will be highlighting my "side-thoughts" with this color, instead of this color. Mas klaro kasi against black. Wala lang, sharing moment.]

Wee ulit.

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May kwento ako.

It may… disturb some of you, and some of you may find it… amusing.

Kasi, kanina, may nagsabi sa akin na, “Huy, blooming ka ngayon, ah! In love?”

I just want to say that girls are really really pretty [at least, prettier than usual] during certain times of the month. Particularly, when they [or we] are ovulating. Hormones are sent out to make our cheeks redder, our lips redder, fuller, and more supple, and our face actually fills out to become more symmetrical. Makeup actually duplicates the appearance of ovulation. [So if you wear makeup, no-one can tell if you're... ehem... fertile or not. But I don't... so... um... there.]

So what did I say when the guy told me that I was “blooming”?

“Dear, I’m probably just ovulating.” [I always wanted to say that, and I finally did!]

[And this is the part when he just gives me a really really bewildered look.]

The End.

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Walang kwenta talaga ang post na ito. Hehehe pasensya na.

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PAHABOL. Yes, this is a blogthing. Nakita ko siya sa blog ni Heneroso, natuwa naman ako. Yellow’s close enough to orange. Pwede na.

Your Blog Should Be Yellow

You’re a cheerful, upbeat blogger who tends to make everyone laugh. You are a great storyteller, and the first to post the latest funny link. You’re also friendly and welcoming to everyone who comments on your blog.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

I call this post: The Way We Were: A Tribute to Bo…

I call this post: The Way We Were: A Tribute to Boy Bands

I must be suicidal. I told myself that I wouldn’t install The Sims [Hail! The Sims!] on my laptop because my academics would reap the consequences. But look what I’ve done. I have reintroduced Zuma [Hail! Zuma!] to my life. And this is coming from the girl who gets distracted by FreeCell [Hail! FreeCell!].

Mabuhay ang bangag.

Just visited CNN.com, and guess what? Lance Bass (from N’Sync) has finally come out. Yes, girls, he is in a “stable relationship” with 32-year-old actor Reichen Lehmkuhl, winner of season four of The Amazing Race.

I always knew something was up with the guy. His eyebrows are neater than mine.

I have to tell my sister. He was her favorite N’Syncer. Poor Ate Rory… Bwahahahaha…

I was never an N’Sync fan - the only boy band I really, truly loved was 5ive… a loooong loooong time ago… Haaay.

Whatever happened to 5ive, anyway? [I think they've broken up.] Yep, I think you’re right.

Why does everyone hate boy bands? I mean, sure, their music has to be the cheesiest of cheese, and all their lyrics are basically the same, and they all wear matching outfits and they all dance and it’s just so… bizaare… but that doesn’t really make them hateable for me. Just cute. Kinda like a really good looking freak show.

I think I just miss boy bands. They don’t make music like that nowadays. [My hat goes off to the Backstreet Boys, who have stuck it out all these years - thank you for staying with us. P.S. Marry me, Kevin.] Now it’s all sissy-punk boy bands. Nagpapanggap na rockers, but we all know that deep inside, they are boy bands, ashamed of their true colors.

Confession: This post is making me hungry for boy band music. Am downloading music by 5ive as I am typing this. I am going to listen to boy band music and I am not ashamed!

I think after listening to too much rock for so long, I need to go back to my roots. [Note to self: Must download stuff by Aqua. Or maybe not.]

Got the Feeling is playing! SING ALONG! [If you got the feelin', jump to the ceiling, ah we're getting down tonight. 1 if you wanna, 2 if you're gonna, 3 cos everything's alright...]

Okay, now I’m starting to scare myself.

[Just realized, J's voice is uncannily similar to that rapper from Gorillaz. Wow.]

Very recently, some girls came up to me and asked …

Very recently, some girls came up to me and asked me why I wasn’t in a relationship yet. They obviously didn’t know that I have never had a boyfriend in my life, and don’t plan on getting myself one soon.

Sure, there are times when I just want to get out there and get myself a boyfriend so I wouldn feel less lonely. Especially when I’m in a beautiful place on my own. For example, when I see a nice sunset, it would be nice to have someone to share it with. And moviehouses are just excruciating [especially when they're showing romantic comedies] - all those canoodling couples and their happiness wafting in the air. Wislawa Szymborska phrased it perfectly in her poem, True Love:

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn’t they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends’ sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it’s obviously a plot behind the human race’s back!

Some of you may be wondering why I am “torturing” myself like this. I admit that there have been times when I was thiiiiis close to crossing over to the “couples” side. But obviously, I haven’t. The problem with getting a boyfriend is, I can’t find a good enough reason to back me up if ever I should. In fact, there are too many reasons against my going into a relationship. I can summarize them in five points:

The main reason: first of all, my parents don’t want me to get into a relationship. They want me to wait until I graduate, and until I get a job. Since I turned eighteen, they’ve very reluctantly allowed me to do what I want to do. But all my life, they have drilled their values into my brain. [They made me read all the Joshua Harris books, Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot, and many many more. I have been told over and over again that I am "worth waiting for". I have a ring with the words "true love waits" etched on the inside.] As a result, I’m not comfortable with the even just the idea of having a boyfriend. Because I know my parents don’t want me to. And, yes, I’m a good daughter. [Yes, I have hated myself many times for being such a goody-two-shoes, but heck, that's the way I am.]

Second, I’m a pessimist. It’s in my nature. Whenever a guy expresses how he feels about… someone [let's say... hmmm... me], I can’t help but feel skeptical. I’m eighteen. It may seem a big number for me right now, but I can’t ignore the fact that I’m young. For what? Too young for a commitment. Basically, I know that if I entertain the idea, it’ll just end badly. I know that there are some exceptions to this rule [e.g.... um... um... Noah and Allie from The Notebook], but those are rare cases.

Third, this just isn’t the right time. This is the time for me to make friends, study, and… [ta-daaah!] study some more. Frankly, I don’t have time to squeeze in maintaining a relationship. I juggle my barkada, my org, and my acads every day. If I had a boyfriend now, he’d be a very unhappy one.

Fourth: I’m not emotionally ready for a relationship. Trust me on this. I mentioned awhile ago that I feel lonely a lot of times. During these moments, I sometimes feel like giving in, just so I could be happy. But that’s just it. I shouldn’t base my happiness on one person. It shouldn’t be like that. After seeing too many of my friends suffer through painful breakups, I know for a fact that it shouldn’t work like that.

The fifth reason’s my favorite. [Warning: this is going to be a more than a little bit mushy.] I believe that there is one person out there made especially for me. I’m waiting for him [and he better be waiting for me]. We’ll find each other soon enough [if we haven't met already - ooh scary thought], when I don’t have to worry about hiding it from my parents. And when I meet him, instead of seeing the imminent breakup, I’m going to be able to see the happy ending. Call me naive, call me stupid, call me anything you want. I like to call myself a hopelessful romantic.

[Oh my gaaaawd that was mushier than I thought it'd be.]

Has singledom been easy on me? Heck no. Mahirap talaga. Especially when you’re being chased around by boys all the time [nyak nyak nyak]. Seriously though, nahihirapan talaga ako. It’s not easy to “just say no” in a “just do it” world. Many of my friends have told me that I can’t hold out for much longer, and that only makes me want to prove them wrong. But it isn’t impossible - I may find myself coupled sooner than I had planned. I just hope that if that happens, it won’t be because I just gave up and gave in.

OkayI’mdonewithtalking. Enough.

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To those people out there who are in a relationship, good for you. Don’t take what I have been saying personally. Dating works for some people, just not for me.

Kung may mga violent reactions kayo sa mga sinabi ko, idaan nalang natin sa question and answer. Mag-comment na!

Wala lang. Because I want to, I present:

My Love Life: A Playlist

1. Single - Natasha Bedingfield [Single pride.]
2. As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional [I swear, I'm the girl Chris Carraba is singing to. This song never fails to depress me. But I listen to it over and over again anyway. I may have masochistic tendencies.]
3. I Will - The Beatles [Wee!]
4. End of the Line - Honeyz [This was during a very difficult period in my not very interesting love life (a loooooooooooooooong time ago). Won't go into details.]
5. Longer - Dan Whatshisface [Wee ulit! Hahaha...]
6. Missy Higgins - Scar

Some of you might have been wondering what had hap…

Some of you might have been wondering what had happened to my blog. Don’t worry, I didn’t suddenly decide that I wanted to go all minimalist. [Minimalism and me don't really mix. I want color, and lots of it.]

Well… it’s a long story, but basically, the internet connection suddenly went haywire while I was editing the template (just adding a link), and I basically lost everything. Thank goodness I have a backup copy of my code. The only problem is, I’m not sure if my links list is complete.

If I have linked you in the past, please check my links list to see if you are there. If you’re not, tell me, and I’ll add you up again.

Thanks to those who commented, and noticed that, hey, wait a second, there’s something wrong going on here… I’m posting your comments here [plug na rin toh], para ma-save naman.

Jigs said…

I love the cold weather, but being in baguio with the storm, it must be really cold! hehe! Why did you change the look of your template?

To Jigs: Now you know.

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> sExYbiTcHy VaNnY said…
waahhh.. namiz ko ang stat class ko.. hehe.

anong feeling ng nasa Baguio na binabagyo?? wahahha. jologs ko din. hihi

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Mhellow said…

hey!! what happened to your super-duper cool layout?? the orange one??

To Mhellow: Relaks lang pare. Hehe.

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utakgago said…

anyway, inform lang kita that your blog-of-the moment membership is expired. (sensya na). but still, you became the apple of the eye of Utakgago.

hahehehe!!

what happened to your layout? the orange one?

anyway. layouts are secondary. as long as the posts are sensible enough, there’s a pure chance of catching attention!!

multiply? haha meron akong account pero wala, nakatiwangwang. ni isang pic- wala. =))

lol. that’s all. http://utakgago.blogspot.com !! thanks for the comment!

To Utakgago: I never really thanked you for featuring my blog… THANK YOU!

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pam said…

hello! padaan..haha…yun lang..=P

Anyway, I updated my Spotlight. And I have a new template, which should be up next week maybe. I’m not sure if it’s better than my current one, all I know is, I want change.

I’m not going to post a real update now, I’m… busy. STUDYING. Believe it or not.

There aren’t many phrases in the Filipino langua…

There aren’t many phrases in the Filipino language that evokes a surge of pure elation like the words: “Walang pasok.” That phrase is up there with “Libre kita?”, and “*in song* Sana ikaaaaaaw na ngaaaaaa…” [Shucks bakit ang jologs ko ngayon?]

How was Baguio? Wonderful. Cold. Very cold. It’s cold enough here in Quezon City. Just imagine what it’s like back there. I missed the cold. I missed getting out of my bed, and after feeling my joints start to freeze over, deciding to go back to the warm haven of my thick duvet cover. And I missed wearing turtlenecks. I brought back my black one. I don’t know when I’m going to wear it, but I am going to wear it… *resilient voice* …Someday.

Ann and I arrived from Baguio at around 4:30 AM (we took the deluxe bus at Victory). We arrived at the dorm at around 5AM. The dorm opens its doors at 6AM. So… we waited. And waited. And eventually, we were permitted to go inside. Seperated ways. And the moment my head hit my pillow, I was asleep. [And probably snoring.]

When I woke up, my roommates were already awake. “May pasok ba?”, I asked them. “Wala!” they said. Yes. Walang Stat101. Walang obnoxious FA28 classmates. Tulog na lang.

Plug: I have resurrected my multiply account. Visit it if you want to see some more pictures (not many, mind you).

Song: Other Side of the World - KT Tunstall Hello…

Song: Other Side of the World - KT Tunstall

Hello, world. I’m back, after two days of blog-break. I’m still in Baguio. Spent the last couple of days vegetating at home, watching videos. Namely, the first CD of Casanova (sucked so much we had to change it), Munich (great, as expected), Motorcycle Diaries (again, and I still love it as much as I did), and the last part of Beautician and the Beast (the cheesecorn! the cheesecorn!).

I’m at Hotshots right now. Hopefully, we’ll be having lunch here. I’m feeling particularly carnivorous today.

Will post pictures soon. Probably tomorrow. When I’m back at the dorm. The internet at home isn’t working.

Can’t really post now, I’m researching for a paper. [Hanggang dito, nagtratrabaho pa ako?! ANU BA YAN!]

Plug: Ann just posted her first post. Hooray.

No class this morning. I wake up at 9. Hobble to…

No class this morning.

I wake up at 9.

Hobble to the door.

Sunlight filters through the trees. The leaves of the trees sway in the wind I can’t feel. Birdsong. The day declares that it is here, not to stay, but maybe to make a name for itself.

I bask in the beauty of morning.

It’s a shame I don’t get to do this every day.

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For the first time since this semester started, I will be going home to Baguio. I love three day weekends. Let everyone else spend next Monday in Mendiola complaining about this and that. I’m going to be in Baguio. My city. My city. (I never get tired of saying that… ;p)

It’s not even important if I see my friends or not, or even if I have fun or not. I just want to be reunited with Baguio. [And yeah, eat real food for once. Haha. Had cup noodles for breakfast today cause I woke up past breakfast time. But noodles actually taste better than most of the canteen food.]

I’m so excited to see my dog. I miss her. Oh, and yeah, my family. Heeheehee.

Ann, my former roomie (who basically still is, because she spends all her time in my room; she only goes to her room to study and sleep), is coming with me. I plan on doing touristy stuff. I love being a tourist in my own city. It’s so fun. Much more fun than being a tourist in a place you’re a stranger to. I like thinking I know where everything is, and discovering (or re-discovering) something I didn’t really see before.

I like falling in love over and over and over with Baguio. I like Session Road and the many different kinds of people (some of them definitely not likeable on their own, but in they complete the spectrum of the multitude).

I’m moving, I’m coming
Can you hear what I hear
It’s calling you my dear, out of reach

School of Economics. Room 125. It was 3:15 PM. …

School of Economics. Room 125. It was 3:15 PM. I entered the classroom. I was the last to come in. The discussion had already started.

She called my name.

I got my blue book.

Something was scrawled on the inside flap:

“Must study very hard to pass.”

Salamat na practice exam lang yun.

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Lumabas na ang first issue ng Echoes, my org’s paper. I’m the Features and Literary Editor. Pero under my name was “Featres”. (SINONG NAG-PROOFREAD NUN, HA?! Moment ko yun, tapos biglang… ganun?! Huhuhuhu….) Yes, it’s a big deal. For me.

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Since I have nothing to say (or nothing I want to post here for all the world to see), pwede bang mag-plug na lang? [Duh, blog mo ito, do whatever you want.]

Here are my babies (some blogs I have worked on), starting from the youngest:

Ann’s blog - Ann was my roommate in Kalayaan. She’s totally new to blogging so there aren’t any entries yet, and she hasn’t tweaked the links, but she’ll get her act together soon, don’t worry. (Nakiki-net lang siya sa laptop ko. Hehe.) And yeah, she’s not as gloomy as her template. This was the first time I made something like this (i.e. something serious and dark - I like funking stuff up). She asked for something morbid, and although it’s not exactly that, it’s emo enough for her.

Pluto’s blog - I also know Pluto from Kalayaan, and Econ-er din siya. He wanted something inspired by the havaianas website - which is one of the most gorgeous sites I have ever come across. Syempre, di kasing ganda ng havaianas website yung ginawa ko, but I have to say that out of all my babies, this is my favorite! (I even like it better than my current template. Love the colors kasi, and it’s nice and simple.) But there’s something wrong with the right-most image. Ewan ko kung bakit, di naman broken yung link… Hmph.

Pie’s blog - Pie was my schoolmate in first year high school. (Or was it grade 6? Hanggang ngayon naguguluhan pa rin ako.) Actually, hanggang ngayon, schoolmates pa rin kami. Anyway, she gave me the image (her silhouette with the iPod), and I worked around it. I like this one a lot as well. Oh, and if you’re using Internet Explorer, the quotebox on the upper right will appear just white. Mag-download na kayo ng Firefox. Microsoft is evil. (Pero Windows pa rin OS ko, ano kaya yun? Okay lang, pirated naman eh. Harharhar. Yoko kasi ng Linux, I feel really stupid when I’m using it; I don’t know where anything is.)

My brother’s blog - This is the first template I worked on, other than the ones I made for my own blogging pleasure. I’m not too pleased with this one because my brother was the one who conceptualized it (haha). He just wanted his picture on the blog. Yun lang. Can you believe that he even said, “Don’t do anything to my picture.”?!?!?! I had to really sweet-talk him to let me apply a sepia tone. And yeah, the picture’s too small. But seeing that he never updates (ahem ahem), I don’t think I’ll be fixing that any time soon.

And syempre, there are my old blogs. Unfortunately, the original aftertaste template isn’t with me, so I can’t show it to you. (You could visit the site, but you will see… nothing but white.) You could still visit my older blogs: Tikim ng Kalayaan and Symphony in the Key of C-minor. I was still learning basic html then, so they aren’t as nice as my recent skins, but I’m still proud of them. ^_^

Alam ba ninyo kung bakit Aftertaste ang tawag sa blog ko? Yes, adik nga ako sa kape, pero hindi yan.

Clue: Di na ako magbibigay ng clue, super dali na nga ng tanong, naghahanap pa kayo ng clue? Tsk tsk tsk…

If you get the right answer… Wala kang makukuhang prize. Just the fulfillment of answering a question correctly. *ismayl!*