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Quote for the Day:
Tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all- If I Had It All, Dave Matthews Band
“So, you’ve all taken 102, right?”
Everyone nods. I try to mask my blank face with an emotion - any emotion - and end up with my bewildered I-didn’t-do-it smile. Fortunately, no-one is looking my direction, and I direct my attention to my notebook. Look busy, look busy.
Typical Journ111 class. It’s not hard, no, that’s not it. I just don’t know why the heck I didn’t think I needed to take Journ101 or something to help me break into the field. Awhile ago they were spouting journalism jargon, and I was all, “what the heck am I doing here?” It’d be funny, actually, only I have to experience all this bewilderment first-hand, and it’s not so entertaining if you’re the one who’s tongue-tied whenever called for recitation.
And don’t even get me started on how I’m so savvy when it comes to current affairs [yes, that's me being sarcastic]. I don’t watch the news, because I have this hate-hate relationship with television programming. And the only times I touch the newspaper is whenever I need some paper to absorb my dog’s pee.
I mean, how can anyone expect me to keep up with the goings-on of the world outside, when I can’t even keep up with my personal life? Awhile ago, my dad asked me for a goodbye hug. I thought he was just going to work, but no, he was going to freaking Malaysia. And when I went, “I didn’t know you were going to Malaysia!”, he just looked at me with that oh-you-cute-little-girl face, and said [in that same tone most people use to talk to six-year-olds]:
Baby, that’s because you’re so detached.
What?! ME?! Detached?!
Freaking heck.
Lots of people have actually told me this already; that I have this kind of forcefield around me that won’t let me get too involved with anything or anyone. Never actually believed them, because I didn’t really think that they had any authority to make any judgments on my identity. But, ladies and gentlemen, this is my father talking.
So, yes, maybe I am detached. Not only am I a loner, not only do I feel lost in most of my classes, I am also emotionally detached. Wonderful.
…To be continued. All this introspection is making me hate myself. Not healthy.
i cheat in that sudoku sometimes. hahaha.
but i agree, its fun. 
hala, kamusta naman at hindi mag journ101, [introduction to journalism]..hehehe.
kelangan yun ah! paano ka nakapag j111 ng hindi nagjo-journ 101?! 
oh, btw. is j111 there magazine production? hehe.
hala. galing pa sa tatay mo mismo. freaking detached! hala ka chevy! wahehehe!
okey lang yan. maybe you’re just pre-occupied with a lot of things. it happens.
but wait.
weird.
diba pag may aalis na kahit sino within the family dapat alam mo? especially if its outside philippines?
yay.
sige, take care.
Hindi prereq yung Journ101, although required siya for journ students. But I am not a journ student. So I didn’t bother taking it. Ahem
Journ111 is Feature Writing. Magazing Production sounds interesting… I wonder if we have that. I also have Journ151, which is advertising, pero parang okay lang naman sa class na yun kung hindi ka nag Journ101… basta magaling ka lang sa mga creative stuff, okay na.
And yes. It’s weird that I didn’t know that my dad was leaving. I don’t get it either.
Malaysia? That’s cool.
And about you having a force field? Maybe it’s just you zoning out on the world. You do that a lot. But when you react, bigay na bigay. It’s like you’re saving your energy for stuff that really matter/ interest you.
You’re not detached, you just don’t care about a lot of things. You tend to focus on just the things that interest you.
Sa ganyang klaseng personality, bagay sayo ang maging doktor.
I think I’m watching too much Grey’s Anatomy. >_
I can relate (though not totally, I think I’d be aware if one of my parents is leaving the country) to what you’re trying to point out. There are certain situations wherein I end up looking like a total dork by giving others looks of bewilderment and say “Huuuuh…”. Especially when they’re talking about Wowowee.
It’s not exactly detached. Just… err, apathetic? Lol.
Erik: That’s a nice way of putting it. ^_^
Belette: Yes, too much Grey’s Anatomy for you. Haha. Anyway, I’m too squeamish to be a surgeon [inisip talaga eh] hahaha.
Bea: I’m not apathetic. Because I care. Haha labo. Wala lang talaga akong alam. :/
aba akalain mong tatay mo pa nagsabi sau nun..
pero sa totoo lang, masaya din naman maging loner ah. diba?
ako naman nakakabasa lang ng dyaryo pag may assignment lang sa skul. hahaha.
un lng.
We are doing stuffs that only others notice. Or sometimes doing them but only done subconsciously. It’s really surprising when somebody tells it out of the blue.
I guess we need to lose that barrier.
Chevy,
It is a journalism student’s luxury to talk journ jargon and current events, so hayaan mo na kami, err, sila..haha! (Im not the typical journ person, kahit na journ rep ako).
Anyway,every form of writing is political, not personal. Even a diary entry is potilical, since it reflects a person’s perception of the society. We are all linked together by a common social fabric, the one reflected in the day-to-day reportage of news. We are just thinking that we are not. =)
I must admit that tv programming here in our country deserves to be hated, but (some) newspapers can still be trusted. Try reading one, and you will find out that the Sudoku puzzle there is a lot harder than the one you are answering.. =)
sorry for the formality.. =)
ui super nakakarelate ako sa detached thing mo.. pero yung sakin detached ako sa friends ko.. ahaha. ina isolate ko kasi yung sarili ko, though gusto ko din magkaron ng maraming friends. what! ang gulo! =))
Maybe you’re just busy with your own life that you tend to isolate yourself with others unconsciously. I mean, you have your own life to live diba? Why worry about others? LOL.
ah.. yes, yes.. sodoku is serious business.. harhar! being detached.. i should know.. haha! well, you know my family history… well, part of it.. haha! for what’s it’s worth, i know nothing about what’s happening outside of UP (maybe even just outside of comp sci). hah!
Maybe you just dont want to know a lot about the details or whatever’s happening around the world… or maybe you are just too focused on what best interests you….. full of maybe’s hehe
I think you’re supposedly detached because your own dealings are heavy and time consuming enough that you no longer bother to connect yourself to others unless they spoon feed it to you. Don’t worry, that happens to all of us.
Oh geez, once I fell in love with SuDoKus like hell. As in, wherever I go, I’d grab a pencil and a thin sudoku book (looks like yours was waaaay thicker than mine lol) and after nine minutes, *tantantan*!
Nah. It depends on my mood anyway.
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thanks. 
my first choice of course was journalism. but then i compelled myself not to pursue my writing skill/ability/talent (whatever one calls it). i envy you.
sorry, i didn’t get the detached thingimajij. see ya.